Planning

For Chaos

Planning For Chaos (Click Album Art to See Full Size):

Planning For Chaos:

1. I States
2. Sex Crazed
3. Swimming Away
4. At The Top
5. Chellie
6. Are You Missing Me
7. I'll Keep You
8. Aztec Anthem
9. TPR Part I
10. TPR Part II

I States Top

I’ve done a lot to think about this May,
As broken hearts begin to fade,
Just like my ankle side,
As I’m recovering from bar fights.
I checked the protocol,
A dozen times before I tripped,
And set that shit ablaze.
Stuck in this sea of platinum daze,
It’s sweet release into my

I State
What did you anticipate?
You know I’m not conventional,
This probably was intentional, woe
I State
Please alleviate,
My guilt-stricken sobbing mind,
I’m crying for you all the time woe…

But there were all these things that I couldn’t see,
When every crisis accompanies some blame,
Resistant to change,
As you regress to your old ways.
Its much more comfortable,
To just go back to what you had,
Than cast yourself back out.

As the Chinese say:
Crisis is opportunity,
Crisis is opportunity,
Crisis is opportunity,
Crisis is opportunity,
But still I wait for platinum days,
Its sweet release and I’ll say, oh

I State
What did you anticipate?
You know I’m not conventional,
This probably was intentional, woe
I State
Please alleviate,
My guilt-stricken sobbing mind,
I’m crying for you all the time woe…

You got in this on the notion,
You could mold me much like clay,
On the other hand I fought locomotion,
Wishin you would stay the same,
I employed extensive labors,
I destroyed your party favors,
I salvaged what was left to savor,
For at least the third or fourth time.
This show has got excitement pending,
But I know exactly how it’s ending,
The matinee show left me recommending,
Something else to fill you up,
Cause I’m done drowning my sorrows,
Besides Hun I’ll be drinking more tomorrow,
A flare gun is what you’re gonna need to borrow,
When I’m giving and reliving all the things I’d rather say,
To all my closest and my bestest as I do reiterate,
I gotta act I got a way that is intentionally strange,
And if I stick to all my principles I’d really subjugate into an…

I State
What did you anticipate?
You know I’m not conventional,
This probably was intentional, woe
I State
Please alleviate,
My guilt-stricken sobbing mind,
I’m crying for you all the time woe…
I State
Please alleviate,
My guilt-stricken sobbing mind,
I’m crying for you all the time woe…

Sex Crazed Top

I need a lover who won’t get close to me, while she’s stabbing me in the back.
On another note she makes love to me, and she never calls me back.

I wonder this got going without us knowing how all this could end…

When all night stayed,
Blacker than the devil,
Burning plastic pebbles,
While we’re laying on the floor. 
I’m still sex crazed,
Never satiated,
I probably should have waited but I never did before.

And won’t you not get close to me, while we’re scandalizing all we can.
When you got the most that means more to me.
What would I care for?
Why would I stop here?

And wonder this got going without us knowing how all this could end…

When all night stayed,
Blacker than the devil,
Burning plastic pebbles,
While we’re laying on the floor.  
I’m still sex crazed,
Never satiated,
I probably should have waited but I never did before

Swimming Away Top

When you’re feeling lost,
Like you’re god given something can’t be reached,
When all your memories,
Have got me killing like the worst was saved for now,
When you’re all I’ve found,
You’re all I’ve wanted,
But I feel,
Way too small…

That’s why I gotta relate,
Like you want me,
And taste all the salt in all the sea,
It’s why I gotta be fake
As long as I’m swimming
I’ll take all you want,
And all you need…

And where did you go?
I hoped you could notice,
I’m so much better now…

When you’re feeling lost,
Like you’re god given something can’t be reached,
Like all your memories,
You’ve got me killing like the worst was saved for now,
But you’re all I’ve found,
You’re all I’ve wanted,
But I feel, well I feel,
Way too small…

That’s why I gotta relate,
Like you want me,
And taste all the salt in all the sea,
It’s why I gotta be fake,
As long as I’m swimming,
I’ll take all you want,
And all you need…

Oh blowing away, I noticed too late, I know you’ll never stop.

At The Top Top

It began with a bang.
And we went with the feeling of it.
Never felt the same,
I was just too dreary of it from you now,
Walk over me,
I am still too drunk to notice,
What was left underneath,
Was just a picture out of focus,
Fucked up and single minded,
You know I try to hide it well
Bad luck to confide in,
When you know me oh so well…

At the top of the world (oh yea) no one can touch me normally.
I can get any girl. And every boy emulates me.
At the top of the world. I can barely hear my calling friends.
With my head in the clouds. I know I’ll never fall in love again…

There must be some kind of place,
A refuge that I can taste,
It seams that they’ve been crawling all up into my face.
It seams that they’ve been crawling. Ba De dilly dawlin little ants just scurry hurry woa…
My god I feel
So let’s forget about those things never said. Just take it in and let it spin around your head
I can’t recall this orbit seams so strange,
I lock up take aim…
I’m coming up off my back I bought a sack of black manikin,
Sharing it with a friend who says you wouldn’t sweat the little shit that ends.
I don’t know what to say, I’m seeing greys at the ending.
But every time I close my eyes I see the monitor flatline I probably should have clarified I’ll never fall in love again…

When you look up at me, are you thinking that I feel you?
When you tread so softly are you thinking that I’ll pick you up!
Spilled paint. Fecal matter, I guess your brains will splatter when
There’s not much to confide in.
When you know me oh so well…

At the top of the world (oh yea) no one can touch me normally.
I can get any girl. And every boy emulates me.
At the top of the world. I can barely hear my calling friends.
With my head in the clouds. I know I’ll never fall in love again…

There must be some kind of drug,
A refuge I’m seeking from.
It seems like they’ve been crawlin all up into my love.
It seams that they’ve been crawling. I’ll be dilly dawlin.
Little ants just scurry, hurry woa….
My god I feel…
No pain as I step on this watchtower you can’t wash flowers you can’t top my turns and I’m sorry to lose it and shoot at the sun. It’s me that you want god its so fucking fun. Look away! You wish you could live. Here’s the first sermon that I’m going to give I’m a preacher!  Just do what I say and we’ll all be in heaven by the end of the day…

So let’s forget about those things never said.
I take it in I let it spin around your head.
I can’t recall this orbit seams so strange I lock up take aim…
I’m coming up off my back I bought a sack of black manikin,
Sharing it with a friend who says you wouldn’t sweat the little shit that ends.
I don’t know what to say, I’m seeing greys at the ending.
But every time I close my eyes I see the monitor flatline I probably should have clarified I’ll never fall in love again…
I’m coming up off my back I bought a sack of black manikin
When I’m sharing it with a friend who says you wouldn’t sweat the little stuff that ends.
I don’t know what to say, I’m seeing greys at the ending.
But every time I close my eyes I see the monitor flatline the respirator standing by I’m pronounced dead at 205, I probably should have clarified I’ll never fall in love again…

Chellie Top

Feel your problems.
Conceal your tears.
A steal, and I’m robbing you of the last three years…
I watched, you plotting.
I’d bide, my time.
You washed down all your body, I dripped out of your life.
I find it hard to see…
So tell me what you need cuz I’m not a mind reader. Is it ripping at the seams or do you want me just to bleed here. Gotta make it fast gotta make the shit happen. I try to make it last but you never let it happen.
If I break you up and you run to me will I break your heart will you cheat on me? When I’m too fuct up at 5 am will you drag me in your room in front of all your friends and say we gotta make it fast gotta make the shit happen I try to make it last but you never let it happen…
So feed this fire.
Embrace your fears.
All the times that we’ve conspired.
Now you taste me in your tears.
So she paints all her problems.
She lays tangled in fear.
She waits for motivation.
She wets her brush with tears
I find it hard to see…
So tell me what you need cuz I’m not a mind reader. Is it ripping at the seams or do you want me just to bleed here. Gotta make it fast gotta make the shit happen. I try to make it last but you never let it happen.
If I break you up and you run to me will I break your heart will you cheat on me? When I’m too fuct up at 5 am will you drag me in your room in front of all your friends and say we gotta make it fast gotta make the shit happen I try to make it last but you never let it happen…
I was your secret
Was found again.
I wanted so to keep it.
You were just too rough to mend
So leave your problems deny your past.
I could be all you wanted but you’ll have to take the chance.
I know you can’t forget the past but you maybe can replace it.
You gotta settle fast if you really wanna save it.
If I make you run away would u hold it all against me and every single day I want you waking up right next to me.
I’m not sure I can cry but its possible u tamed me and if you wanna try I’ll be trying with you daily.
You’re always on my mind but I never wanna say it we never have the time but I gotta say baby
If I break you up and you run to me will I break your heart will you cheat on me?  When I’m too fuct up at 5 am will you drag me in your room in front of all your friends and say we gotta make it fast gotta make the shit happen I try to make it last but you never let it happen…

Are You Missing Me? Top

I’m yours be mine my valentine:
Someday you’ll see that all you’ve bought has got you pale,
And you grow stale, while you’re missing me my darling.

When I was younger I thought I knew everything
Now I’m older I know I know everything
A little wiser not sure you learned anything
How to lie, cheat, and cover up everything.

So we live and call this progress.
You give and say you’re flawless.
But I know you bought this.
You know that. I know that.

When you fall it’s a long way up.
Tired of waiting, I’d rather get stuck.
And know, are you missing me my darling?

I’m yours be mine my valentine:
Someday you’ll see that all you’ve bought has got you pale,
And you grow stale, while you’re missing me my darling.

Well I know I’m lonely and I’ve got nothing to show for it.
But, other times I just gotta get over this and,
Time flies but you know what you want,
And as far as I’m concerned that’s nothing but problems if you

Don’t try, don’t think, don’t talk about it
Give up get clean change your motives on it
Can’t wait just to feel like you just forgot
But every dream you dream it always seems and seems you’re never gonna please the ones you want to…

When you fall it’s a long way up.
Tired of waiting, I’d rather get stuck.
And know, are you missing me my darling?

I’m yours be mine my valentine:
Someday you’ll see that all you’ve bought has got you pale,
And you grow stale, while you’re missing me my darling.

She said:
I’m trouble you just gotta get over me
And those guys are the ones that you’ll never please
And time flies but you know what they want
As far as I’m concerned that nothing but problems but
I’m trouble you just gotta get over me
And time flies but you know that you’ll never please and
Time flies but you know what you want
As far as I’m concerned that’s all that you’ve got

When you fall it’s a long way up.
Tired of waiting, I’d rather get stuck.
And know, are you missing me my darling?

I’m yours be mine my valentine:
Someday you’ll see that all you’ve bought has got you pale,
And you grow stale, while you’re missing me my darling.
Are you missing me my darling life?

I’ll Keep You Top

I can’t seem to fit, all the shit that I want in my mouth.
And I can’t seem to quit, calculating all that I find.

And I can’t see, why we don’t just embrace our miseries and face the reasons we stay inside…

Cuz every ball has got a chain,
Every chain has got a ball,
And every dog has got his day,
Say he knew this all along,
So we charge it to the end,
We can sleep there when were dead,
And if I get there, I will know…

I can’t seem to fit, all the shit that I want in my mouth.
And now I can’t seem to quite, running you out of this nonsense.

If I can’t see, why we don’t just embrace our miseries and face the reasons we stay inside…

I know you don’t belong here,
But you think it more when you say,
You say that I’ll be coming back for,
Well I’ll be coming back for,
The reasons we stay inside…

And when I get there I will know…

I’ll keep you satisfied,
I’ll keep you up at night,
I won’t regret I will forget,
I’ll keep you satisfied,
I’ll keep you up all night,
I won’t regret I will forget,
Reasons I stay inside…

Cuz every ball has got a chain,
Every chain has got a ball,
And every dog has got his day,
Say he knew this all along,
So we charge it to the end,
We can sleep there when were dead,
And if I get there, I will know…

Aztec Anthem Top

II sat around for the whole school day,
I slept till two and blazed away,
I tripped on shit walking out of my room,
Took two bong hits and hummed this tune:

I love my life I know its true,
I get fucked up but so do you,
I love my life every single day I say…

When I found my phone I was filled with shame,
Last night’s calls proven mundane,
I turned it off and I rubbed my brain,
With a muffled cough I turned to say,
I wonder who drives to the bars tonight,
And if Dieter calls they towed his ride,
I’ll stop by Stopher’s for supplies and then I’ll,
Smoke bong tokes over at J9’s,
And then I’ll get Neal Ball at Crocodile,
I drink at Uno’s for a while,
Then I’ll cab it PB meet at Moondoggie’s
A round of surfers round of sluts and a girl approaches me she said,

I love my life I know its true,
I get fucked up but so do you,
I love my life every single day I say…

I saw your band at the Lindo show,
We blew lines off of frat row,
You changed my life thought you should know,
Nights inside I shivered so,
But Kyle came up, he was bleeding,
He said, “I got jumped just down the street.”
So we dashed on down to the hospital,
With two hash joints found when we were full,
Of anxiety it’s the next school day,
Jeff turned to me and he exclaimed:
“I was never in love with that crazy ass bitch,
and its never enough when she gets me pissed.
So I’m driving drunk as shit down to Mexico,
and I don’t give a shit if you pussies won’t go,
cause I gottta blow some steam I gotta lose this feel,
cause Cyndi stabbed me in the side with her high heel.”
Get Branden, Cooper rounded up,
Get Jared, Gerald all fucked up,
When we all wanna stay till it gets real late,
Cause we wake up in the morning, cross the boarder and say,
I lost half of our group last night,
Vanessa jumped on a pony ride,
And Mikey boy was left behind,
He had to sell his clothes for the boarder ride,
When he stumbled into 54th
At 9 am in his boxer shorts,
And we smoked a spliff we drank rum coffee,
I said you’re lucky mother fucker cause you know what I’ve seen,
Parties out at the beach tonight,
When Siko plays its hella tight,
And we’ll get lose as hell and we’ll talk some shit,
We’ll never get enough though we can’t afford it.

I love my life I know its true,
I get fucked up but so do you,
I love my life every single day I say…

I went to a party up at UC,
Three untapped kegs needed release,
So we each manned up when the beer gave way we said,
“Glasses up to the kids from State!”
So happy day Tom Anderson,
These past four years have been nothing but fun,
From the Tahoe snow to the two G blow,
You’re all down mother fuckers now lets all get drunk!

I love my life I know its true,
I get fucked up but so do you,
I love my life every single day I say…

Tomorrow I don’t care, Tomorrow its not there…

TPR Part I Top

Ring, Ring,
Check the calling screen,
Everyone was looking up at me,
Everyone looks things are gonna get ugly,
We did five lines at the back of the bus,
There were t-shirts that were printed of us,
As we looked up unsusceptible subjects
And now,
Just here we are,
Just at the mall,
There is no pain there’s either black or white,
You either get it or you never have tried,
You cannot look into my eyes,

And it’s exactly where you know you wanna be,
When all ends justify the means,
It’s exactly where you know you wanna stay always,

I’m unfaithful.
Is it really what you want?
Just think about it talk about it make promises you laughed about so what,
And I’m not mistaking it,
Feed it to you like its cake, make promises I plan to break,
So this time next week you’ll be sleeping soundly next to him,
Like I planned this all along.

And it’s exactly where you know you wanna be,
When all ends justify the means,
It’s exactly where you know you wanna stay always,

Get it off.
I get it off.
When you feel like there’s nothing at all,
I try to eat.
I try to sleep.
And I try to think rationally.
Out into my life,
Out into my night,
And I try and I try to get fucked by you,
I won’t even try.
I spin to my front back look side to side,
You’re front now,
Keep in mind,
Self-conscious mannikin’s all,
Wearing a frown,
Looks like there’s no one else around,
Run to a comfort that has,
Never let you down,
We’ll take all your pain away,
You’ll never be alone.

All my waking life I’d adhered to the advice that in order to truly know happiness a person must truly embrace suffering first. For this very reason I have constantly put myself in harm’s way.  Endeavored to lie, cheat and steal; take a mile when given an inch; stretch a relationship out like a new pair of pants; share my tumultuously private experiences through song; because I believe in vanity humanity and overwhelming calamities happening to the good of people for no good fucking reason. And because of the inherent uncertainty in existence, we grasp at anything we can. Well I say fuck reliability, and fuck that! Let’s bask in it, and celebrate its mystery as postmodern products perplexed in a plastic parameter that permeates every possible parallel...

TPR Part II Top

Self-consious manikin’s all,
Self-consious manikin’s all,
Self-consious manikin’s all,
We’ll take all your pain away,
You’ll never be alone.

If I got nothing to say, I’ll be throwing this out,
When you push me away, I’ll be pulling you down,
When you turn me away, and I turn you around,
When the cavities fade, I’ll remember these sounds,

I’ve been broken for days, till I found my heart,
Its irrational ways, getting me to start,
Wishing I could change, changing was too hard,
Wishing you would stay, knowing I would part,

So its time I embrace, all my deepest flaws,
And its time I erase, all that once was wrong,
With the things that I want to believe are right,
And I’m going to find this out tonight…

If I got nothing to say, I’ll be throwing this out,
When you push me away, I’ll be pulling you down,
When you turn me away, and I turn you around,
When the cavities fade, I’ll remember these sounds,

I’ve been broken for days, till I found my heart,
Its irrational ways, getting me to start,
Wishing I could change, changing was too hard,
Wishing you would stay, knowing I would part,

So its time I embrace, all my deepest flaws,
And its time I erase, all that once was wrong,
With the things that I want to believe are right,
And I’m going to find this out tonight…

Well I’m not one to go beep my own horn but,
Toot! Toot! Toot! Toot! Toot!
Toot! Toot! Toot! Toot! Toot!
Toot! Toot! Toot! Toot! Toot!